Walk On

Everyone has moments in life when they feel like the world is crumbling around them and nothing could get any worse.  A few weeks ago, I was at the deepest, hardest, stinkiest part of rock bottom.  The reality of my infertile was looming over me all the time, my testimony of the gospel was at its weakest, my relationship with my husband was strained because I refused to let him comfort me, and I was sure that nothing could be right again unless I conceived.  Its amazing how quickly things can brighten up again...and all it takes is the resolution to be happy, and make the most of you've got.  This last Sunday I went to church for the first time in months. It has been hard for me lately to attend all my meetings because everywhere you look its swollen bellies, baby carriages, and diaper bags.  I mean, you get that anywhere, but in Provo, UT, and especially at church, pregnant women are a species apart.  Anyway, I finally screwed up the courage to go last Sunday, and guess what...I was okay.  That green monster of jealously that takes control so often was gone, and I could honestly be excited for those women who were pregnant.  It was a wonderful feeling, and one I hope I can hold onto....although I'm pretty sure I will continue to get discouraged at times.  Anyway, my point is that when things are going badly, we need to remember to look forward to a future where things are happy again.  Nothing ever stays wrong that long....so walk on.